R Ashwin on Ravi Shastri's 'Kuldeep no.1 spinner' statement: I felt crushed

22 December,2021 07:32 AM IST |  New Delhi  |  PTI

Coach Shastri’s remark about Kuldeep Yadav being India’s No.1 spinner overseas left Ashwin heartbroken

R Ashwin talks to then head coach Ravi Shastri at the Oval, London, earlier this year. Pic/Getty Images


India's premier off-spinner R Ashwin has revealed that he felt like he was being "thrown under the bus" after a remark by former head coach Ravi Shastri left him "crushed" during a torrid phase in his career when he contemplated retirement multiple times.

In an interview with ESPNCricinfo, Ashwin was asked how he felt when then coach Shastri anointed Kuldeep Yadav as India's No. 1 spinner overseas after he had taken a five-for in the 2019 Sydney Test against Australia.

‘Happy for Kuldeep'

Ashwin said he was genuinely happy for Kuldeep as he knew how difficult it is to take five wickets as a spinner in Australia, but Shastri's remarks left him "absolutely crushed."

"I hold Ravi bhai in high esteem. We all do. And I understand we all can say things and then retract them. At that moment, though, I felt crushed. Absolutely crushed," Ashwin said.

"We all talk about how important it is to enjoy your teammates' success. And I was happy for Kuldeep. I have not been able to get a five-for, but he has a five-for in Australia. I know how big it is.

"But if I have to come and partake in his happiness, and the success of the team, I must feel like I belong there. If I feel like I am being thrown under the bus, how am I supposed to get up and come to a party to enjoy the team's or teammate's success?"

Ashwin, however, still made it to the celebration party that was organised following the Indian's team's historic series triumph Down Under.

Ashwin, 35, said that recurring injuries meant that he was playing under "excruciating pain" when he took three wickets in each innings to lead India to victory in the first Test.

Shastri's remark was quite too much for Ashwin after he played a role in the team's win in the series opener. "The first Test seemed like a distant memory by then. I had taken three of the first four wickets in the first innings after we were bowled out cheaply, and then when it got really flat in the final innings, I plugged away for 50-plus overs and took three wickets despite what turned out to be a grade three abdomen tear.

"In my mind, I had done something great for the team in excruciating pain, but all I heard was, ‘Nathan Lyon took six, Ashwin took three.'

Frustrated

"As it is, I was frustrated with my body for letting me down when I was in really good bowling form. The last thing I needed was these comparisons and insinuations. Between that reaction and Sydney, it didn't feel like I had played any part at all," Ashwin said.

There was a phase between 2018 to 2020 when he almost quit playing. "Between 2018 and 2020, I contemplated giving up the sport at various points. I thought, ‘I have put in a lot of effort, but it is not coming through.' The harder I tried, the farther it felt. Especially with athletic pubalgia and the patellar tendonitis - I used to bowl six balls and then I used to be gasping for breath. And there would be pain all over the place'," Ashwin recalled.

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