Sushant Singh Rajput's sister Shweta recalls day of his demise in new book: I didn't scream. I didn't cry

Sushant Singh Rajput

Late Sushant Singh Rajput's sister Shweta Singh Kirti often speaks about her brother on social media ever since his demise in 2020. The actor was found dead in his Bandra apartment on June 14, 20202 sending shockwaves across the country. Shweta Singh Kirti, his sister who lives in the US, also wrote an affectionate account of Sushant in her new book, 'Pain: A Portal to Enlightenment'.

On Sushant Singh Rajput's 38th birth anniversary, we look at Shweta's account about her brother in her new book:

Sushant's birth:

Shweta revealed that her parents wanted a son after her birth as they had lost their first son. "My family members have often told me that Mom and Dad wanted a son, more so because Mumma's first child had been a son and she had lost him at a very young age." She said that Sushant was born on January 21, 1986 after a lot of spiritual visits and rituals.

Growing up together:

"Growing up, we were each other's shadows - always together. We played and danced, studied and got into mischief, ate and slept, and did everything in unison, to the point people forget we were two separate individuals; they even called us ‘Gudia-Gulshan' as if we were a single entity," Shweta wrote, explaining that Gudia and Gulshan were her and Sushant's nicknames.

On her wedding:

Shweta said that she regretted leaving her brother behind and settling in USA after her marriage. "As I prepared to leave, Bhai hugged me tightly, tears streaming down our faces. It was a heartbreaking moment - we knew we wouldn't be living together anymore, that we wouldn't have the luxury of seeing each other as much as we used to," Shweta wrote.

Shweta's last visit to Sushant:

Shweta revealed that Sushant got busy with his career in Bollywood and she with her life in the USA. However, she would visit him annually from 2014 to 2017. That was her last visit to him as four days before he was found dead in his Mumbai apartment on June 14, 2020, she invited him to the US again on the phone. She could not come to India in 2018 and 2019.

On getting the unfortunate news:

Shweta revaled that it was the night of June 13, 2020 in the USA when her husband broke the news to her. "A chill ran down my spine and I lay in bed paralysed. I didn't scream. I didn't cry. By conviction of my practice, I fell into a space that sucked all the shock that my body and mind were going through," she wrote.

Missing SSR's cremation:

Owing to the pandemic, Shweta could not reach India on time for Sushant's funeral. "The realization that I would not be able to see him for the last time and bid him a proper farewell left me feeling angry and frustrated. There was no closure for me."